OMG!! I have ADHD/ADD
I was given the assesment test my a Pshycologist to take home and fill out along with a person that knew me very well back in October 2009. Well, I answered the questions and I was suppose to give the other test to my BFF but I never got around to dropping it off to her. I either cancelled, or didn't have time to go see her or just plain forgot. I ended up giving it to my sister, who doesn't really now me that well, to assess me. Finally, in late November I took it to the Dr and he took several days to give me the assesment! He stated I had ADHD and I should get educated on the topic. I was given a prescription and the day I started to take it!! WOW!!! What a difference!! Well....months have passed since the veil was uncoverd and I FINALLY decided to get EDUCATED on my disorder. OVER 3 MONTHS LATER!!! What was I thinking????
I knew the basics of the disorder and the medication was helping or is helping to a certain extent, but it is SOOO not a magic pill!!! I googled today looking for support groups with ADHD in my town and came across so many websites with information! I am listening to Driven To Distraction and I am learning so much!! I need help!! I cannot do this alone!!!
I am a single mom of 3 kids, 8,6,2! omg...i have so much to say...it's all just floating in my mind!! I will write as a I am feeling! Right now I am having so much anxiety due to everything I am finding out! I want to be a part of so many online communities that just the thought of not being able to subscribe to them all is making me have an anxiety attack!! :(
I have been watching my 8 year old and I am more than convinced she also has the disorder! She does exactly what I use to when I was a kid!!! She is in 3rd grade and is falling behind in reading/comprehension! She will be tested on Monday the 8th and I wish it would be sooner!! The therapist she is going to be working with specializes in children with ADD/ADHD. Since speaking with her therapist and my learning more about this disorder I have been trying so hard to change with her. To try to help her through her daily life of disorganization...forgetting homework....impulsivity...tantrums...etc!! It doesn't help that I have it too and that I don't have the support of her father!! He hates me and thinks I am a pshycho due to my Chronic Depression and of course so many other things that goes with an 11 year marriage and horrid divorce!
So I want to reach out to people like me!! I want to talk to you all!! I want to hear your stories and you hear mine and help me through my day!! Right now I just want to cry!!! I am overwhelmed with ....I don't know....is it information and/or inablity to gather it all??? I have no clue...other than I have a knot in my throat!!! I called a local company that will be her on Wednesday to help me get organized. They work with people with our disorder and as they were telling me how the session was gonna go..he started to tell me things that I would do and I do on a daily basis and how the are able to work around it. I will be paying them 60 an hour with a minimum of 4 hours! WOW!! Pretty steep but I need order in my business.
Ok...I have to go..I spent over 2 hours doing research and should have been working on files!
I knew the basics of the disorder and the medication was helping or is helping to a certain extent, but it is SOOO not a magic pill!!! I googled today looking for support groups with ADHD in my town and came across so many websites with information! I am listening to Driven To Distraction and I am learning so much!! I need help!! I cannot do this alone!!!
I am a single mom of 3 kids, 8,6,2! omg...i have so much to say...it's all just floating in my mind!! I will write as a I am feeling! Right now I am having so much anxiety due to everything I am finding out! I want to be a part of so many online communities that just the thought of not being able to subscribe to them all is making me have an anxiety attack!! :(
I have been watching my 8 year old and I am more than convinced she also has the disorder! She does exactly what I use to when I was a kid!!! She is in 3rd grade and is falling behind in reading/comprehension! She will be tested on Monday the 8th and I wish it would be sooner!! The therapist she is going to be working with specializes in children with ADD/ADHD. Since speaking with her therapist and my learning more about this disorder I have been trying so hard to change with her. To try to help her through her daily life of disorganization...forgetting homework....impulsivity...tantrums...etc!! It doesn't help that I have it too and that I don't have the support of her father!! He hates me and thinks I am a pshycho due to my Chronic Depression and of course so many other things that goes with an 11 year marriage and horrid divorce!
So I want to reach out to people like me!! I want to talk to you all!! I want to hear your stories and you hear mine and help me through my day!! Right now I just want to cry!!! I am overwhelmed with ....I don't know....is it information and/or inablity to gather it all??? I have no clue...other than I have a knot in my throat!!! I called a local company that will be her on Wednesday to help me get organized. They work with people with our disorder and as they were telling me how the session was gonna go..he started to tell me things that I would do and I do on a daily basis and how the are able to work around it. I will be paying them 60 an hour with a minimum of 4 hours! WOW!! Pretty steep but I need order in my business.
Ok...I have to go..I spent over 2 hours doing research and should have been working on files!
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Comment by Lizzette on March 4, 2010 at 2:35pm -
Wow! I so get how you're feeling!!! First, take a deep breath. I'm kinda late responding to your post, (since I don't always check it :) ) but when I'm feeling overwhelmed (like I was yesterday) I literally force myself to stop. That is easier said than done. If you feel like crying, then do so. Take a moment in a quiet private place and do it. Then, ask yourself at that present moment in time what do you have control of and what you don't. If writing it down helps then do that. For that moment, do that one thing that must be done or that you really and I mean really need to do and just make that your goal for the day. I've learned in the last six years that I've been diagnosed (had it my entire life but didn't know it), is that I had to learn and still learning that I'm not super mom and wife and that I don't have to do it all and do it all perfectly. Some days are better than others but it is getting better for me. My oldest child (18) has adhd and it was hard on my family also. I had to learn a whole new way of doing things for myself and learn how to teach him so he can enjoy life. There are a lot of bumps and bruises along the way, but I was determined to never give up on myself and my kids. Be determined to keep finding what works for you and the kids, and if one thing doesn't work then keeping searching. Believe me, you'll find what works and then you'll have less bad days. I want you to believe and keep telling yourself that you are not alone, although you feel that way. Depression is a horrible disease and it can cripple us. Although I don't know you, I believe and you have to believe that you are special, you are a wonderful woman, mother and friend. I hope you find happy days ahead and that service of helping you get organized works for you. Let us know, I'm interested. Take Care!
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