Inattentive ADD Mom's view

So I just read Terry's e-mail about the difference between inattentive and hyperactive moms.  I was diagnosed at age 26 with inattentive type (right after my husband was diagnosed with inattentive type).  His ADD was a joke in our relationship until we brought our 2nd child home.  I honestly felt like I had 3 kids all of the sudden and it was so hard for me to 'love my husband' when I had to treat him like a child.  So to make a long story short, I made a MD appt for him and he was officially diagnosed, started meds and was like a totally different person!  I started reading everything I could and I was completely amazed that not only were they talking about my husband but I was seeing a lot of myself.  I was diagnosed about 1 year after my husband.  My medications help me so much when I am at my clinic job (I have 2 part time jobs).  I know what needs to get done but I have to think about how to do and eventually talk myself out of doing it because it will take too long.  I have a very short attention span so when my Doctor tells me to do 3 things for this patient and walks away from my desk I have no idea what he said.  The meds help SOOOO much.  I just do things without over thinking it and I don't have to have him repeat himself :)  My second job is in an ER and LOVE IT!!  Talk about the perfect job for someone like me. I get told throughout my shift what do to, then I do it and it is finished and I never have to think about it again :)  Do you have any idea how rewarding it is!  I get to ACCOMPLISH so much at work and then I have to go home......

I have struggled at home since we brought our son home (through the blessing of adoption).  I am always at a complete loss as of what to do and how to prioritise.  I don't often take my meds when I am at home because it seems like when they kick in I will hyperfocus on something not important.  I am still trying to find balance.  It is very hard to have any kind of routine or schedule.  It is so sad because I know that is what we need so desperately but between my hubby and I we just can't stick to it.  We also struggle with our finances (surprise!).  I did just get an Iphone and the calendar on that has been a HUGE help for me.  I put everything in it and I always have it with me so I am hoping I will no longer forget all of those little things.

My daughter is 6 and I truly feel like she is ADHD.  She is always moving!  She will be 'snuggling' with me before bed and she will have her legs over her head, clapping, singing, talking NONSTOP and then all of the sudden she is still and sleeping.  It's like a light switch.  She also doesn't need very much sleep (unlike me).  I have such a hard time parenting her.  She is so emotional and will still have tantrums.  We could never let her 'cry it out' because she honestly wont ever stop or end up breaking something (like throwing a book at the bathroom door and putting a hole in it).  As of now we have not had her tested because she is not having any problems at school.  I think she thrives at school because it is so structured, she knows what is going to happen and she is kept busy.  When she gets home she has no idea what to expect.  I know that if is she ADD/ADHD that medication would help her out so much.  I look back on my childhood (and she is me all over again) and I am so angry that this was missed.  I struggled so much accidemicaly (mostly spelling and math) and that brought on low self esteam.  My first antidepressant was in 7th grade.  I just don't want her to struggle like that.  I guess I feel like if I could just get it right at home like organize and schedule that she would be better off.  She once had to stay in from recess becasue she didn't have her homework done!  I felt so terrible becasue it is my responsibilty to make sure it's done.  

I totally believe that the stress causes my symptoms to be worse.  I think about all the things that I need/want/have to do and I know that I will not get them done.  All that thinking makes me exhausted to actually DO anything about it so I usually end up in bed early to stay up late and watch TV.   

Cheers to you if you read this far ;)  Sorry, I struggle with getting my point across.  I have NO idea what the hyperactive mom goes through but I'm sure it is just a different type of struggle.

Thank you all for letting me vent.  This site has been so awesome in helping me not feel alone!