I see the term ADHD and ADD used on here... I was just wondering if anyone else has an ADHD diagnosis and what symptoms they experience. I sometimes feel nuts because I can't sit still, sometimes I feel manic and wondered if I was Bipolar or something but the doctor seems to feel it's just part of the ADHD. I don't know if it's connected to the hyperactivity but I am incredibly impulsive, partly because I have so many ideas and want to do so many things and while I have the energy I can't stay focused or get organized enough to finish anything. The upside is I can go to the gym and workout for 2hrs straight and love it because I love to move and expel energy. My son has ADHD and his hyperactivity is off the charts too, he can't even sit through class without a wiggle seat and that's on the meds he takes 3 times a day. I am on meds too, but they have a limited effect for me as well. Just curious if anyone else experience the hyperactivity too.
Gosh, it sounds like you've been through a lot. I'm so sorry you can't find some peace after all this time.
I looked up Metadate and I found a website that, at the bottom of the page, it says that anxiety, aggitation and tension can be intensified while on Metadate. http://www.drugs.com/pro/metadate-er.html that's the website where I found that information. I just wasn't sure if you had read anything like that or not. I've read many good things about Strattera but I'm like you...I need the stimulant. So, I'm wondering if Jen's combination of meds would be a good idea for you. I've been trying to tell my doctor that Adderall alone is not doing anything. I can suffer from agitated mood swings myself but I've noticed that once my doctor added an afternoon dosage and then increase that afternoon dosage, those mood swings have gone. I know everyone is different and we all just have to find our own combination through trial and error I guess. I just feel awful for you that you've been dealing with this for so long and have not found an answer yet. My psychologist told me to try something that, honestly...I've not been able to try yet. He told me I needed to do Yoga. I said, "YOGA??? Isn't that a little boring for me?" He started laughing and said, "That's precisely the point. Internally, your brain is on 'go mode' constantly and just spinning out of control. I think you really need to do SOME form of meditation." I probably gave him the biggest look of, "HUH?" But, I've thought about it and I think he's right. I tried to do it one day with my kids, but my 20mo old sat on my head and started hitting me with a toy....after that I figured that was something that needed to be done while he is asleep at some part of the day. But maybe you could try something like that too. He also told me that he thinks my agitation comes from not enough time alone. He said that I seem to be the kind of person that likes my privacy and time to myself and with three kids and a Husband that works a lot, I never get it anymore. Just throwing that out there in case it might help you out too. I had explained my agitation to my doctor like this: Every morning I start out with an empty bowl. As things begin to aggravate me, an 'angry ball' gets dropped in the bowl. Eventually, the bowl is full of 'angry balls' and I just explode!!!! But I have noticed...my afternoon dose of Adderall has helped my 'bowl' not get full!!
I wish there was a med for hypersensitivity. I HATE it...but I just cannot STAND for my kids OR my husband to touch me too much. I mean, there are times of the day that I'm in snuggle mode, but when I'm not....DO NOT TOUCH ME!!! That agitates me til no end!!! Does that sound horrible?
Anyway...I should get off the computer I suppose. I just wanted to offer up anything I could. It's not much. I hope you can find a better solution for yourself or a better doctor or something. Until then....we're always here for you!!! I might not have many words of wisdom for you, but I can listen! I know sometimes that's all we really need!
Right now I am on Zoloft and Metadate-ER. I was diagnosed with OCD at 11 and Bulimia at 12 and by the time I was in 9th grade I had a homebound teacher coming to the house so I could be in intensive out-patient therapy 5 days a week due to "multiple psychiatric issues" (4hrs a day). I have been "diagnosed" with everything under the sun including Borderline Personality when I was 15, Oppositional Defiant Disorder (also at 15), OCD, Bulimia, and with my menstration they said I had Premenstral Dysphoric Disorder and I have been on every med for depression and anxiety you can think of and nothing really helped until they added a stimulant to the SSRI, I wasn't diagnosed ADHD until I was an adult. My PMDD is still bad, when I am about to start I have a hair trigger... I have really tried my best to control it now that I have kids but before they came I would punch walls, scream at people, throw things, and fly off the handle at any little thing. I have never run across a med that helps that feeling, but I work diligently at changing the behavior.
I couldn't do YOGA, I just don't have the balance for it... I can't even stand on one foot for very long. Vigorous activity has a calming effect on me, a strange as it sounds I love getting on the eliptical machine or the treadmill with my music and going and just get "in the zone" as they say. I even have to be careful on the treadmill though, I have lost my footing and fallen off more than once lol. I guess it isn't meditative but it burns off steam and energy. As for YOGA for eating disorders, I dunno... there is such a disconnect and even disdain for the body (more accuratley your perception of your body) getting "in-tune" with it is sort of like sleeping with the enemy lol... I have been in recovery from that for almost 10yrs.
Stephanie, you mentioned being hypersensitive to touch and I am too! My poor husband can't even lay his arm across me while we sleep. I love my children and I hug and cuddle them often but as terrible as it sounds I have to force myself to do it at times...sometimes I feel like contact just makes me want to shoot out of my skin! I also can't touch things like peaches, potatos, chalk, or unglazed pottery (like flower pots) it makes my skin crawl. I am hypersensitive to smells and light too. My Autistic son had an Occupational Therapist evaluate him and diagnosis him with Sensory Processing Disorder and when we went over the symptoms and alot of it sounds like the trouble I have. She told me it often is secondary to ADHD and Autism (both of which my son has) so it would make sense for adults with ADD/ADHD to suffer from some sensory issues as well.
I haven't really had any terrible problems with the meds I am on now. As many SSRIs as I have been on and the copious ammounts of Serotonin that have flooded my neurotransmitters I could probably eat a bowl of Zoloft for breakfast and not feel drugged.
Thanks for sharing and listening, it's really nice not to feel so alone in dealing with this stuff!